October 2018
I was in my Junior year of high school. I had found minor success in making school friends and even began doing better in my academics (all A’s) when my life was shook in a way it had never been before. One day I woke up with a delusion. What made it a delusion was the fact I could not be persuaded that my delusion hadn’t happened. I then proceeded to become more and more delusional as the days went by, until I was unable to think about anything other than my delusions. I was told by the doctor that I was having a psychosis, which I had to come to terms with then move past. After a 2 week hospitalization I found myself sleeping 17 hours a day due to the terrible depression I found myself in. What worsened the depression even further was the side effects from psychosis prescribed medications. I found myself unable to even lift a finger most days… deprived of all motivations I could not breathe the air without feeling I was exhaling toxins. I was hurting more than I ever had; but in the midst of my suffering was a gift. This gift was a copy of Pokemon Firered purchased by my Dad.
There is one thing in life that I believe can get anyone in life out of a bad mindset. That thing is called the grind. The grind is necessary, but not necessarily evil. The reward effect from the grind is god-tier. Want to know what does SUCK about the grind. Waiting 2 weeks to get paid for your work. However, Gamers get paid instantly for their work through EXP.
EXP is an easier transaction than money. EXP is infinite. EXP is life.
Flame's Domain 